Full-Blown Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe pain around one eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Sheila Sexton
Sheila Sexton

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